When out with daoyong and went to USS.

Had alot of fun seriously.

Went for alot of rides.

Loves the pyramid the most.

Thanks boy, you give me the best times i never had.

10.30pm

Went to marina square to wait for 12am to strike for 2012.

Saw those fireworks, thanks alot boy, iloveyou.

After that tried to take bus to go home but wait so lonq still dont have bus..

So tried to catch a cab for fucking 3hours hahha. Walk and walk all the way to niu che shui !

hahaha, die me.

1st jan and slept for the whole day to 4pm.

Woke and went to marina again with my family to eat.

After that went to watch "Dragon Gate" until 2am.

another day just went by like this and it's 2nd jan.

Tomorrow school starts..

Boy imissyou . Imissyou. Imissyou so much. I miss you until i wanna die. I miss you until i couldn't take it so im blogging it now. I miss you so much that i called you and want to listen to your voice but you didnt answer it. I miss you so much that I am so tired but i couldn't sleep because all i can think of now is you. I miss you so much that words seriously couldn't describe. I miss you alot alot alot. I miss you until I tear. Why do i miss you so much now idk why. Just feel so. I want to hug you now. Wish you are by my side.. Imissyou.

Hahaa. Gonna spend it with my boif LDY.

Seriously im thinking whether it is right to be with him at this time rather then family.

But well, i want to give it a try and go with him.

Just wanna post and says this that's all.

Love my family, Daoyong & bitch <3

Thankyou all for wishing me...

Especially to My brothers, Tengxiang & samuel and also Jasmine & Daoyong...

Thankyou so much for this wonderful birthday.

I don't need any gifts or anything, all of this is enough to make me happy.

I am very happy seriously. :)

I don't know how to thanks your to give me my appreciation.

It's like, Thankyou.. It is a very wonderful and heart-warming birthday.

Thankyouh very much.

Especially to daoyong♥, thankyou for helping me everyday.

Thankyou for staying up so late at night just to set up those candles with jas and my bros.

But please give me some time to think.

I need to think it wisely, just in case, i make the wrong mistake again.

Thank jasmine.♥

You stayed up so late for me too. 12pm sharp.

Thankyou so much ♥

I deleted that blog ;)

From now, it's a new start for this blog.

It's not that i hate to let anyone see my history,

It's just that i feel that you are looking through me.

I feel, unsecured ;]

Anyway, I took away the shoutouts.
Which is the chatbox because I kinda hate it ;)

So yeah, YOU CAN'T COMMENT ANYMORE. BOO. LOL.

Now adays I still am not attending school.

Right now im still thinking whether to attend school or not.

Having alot of considerations in stuffs.

Sorry dy ;)

Even though the one whom should make the most effort in stuff is me.

Yet, You are the one who makes the most effort and nothing changes.

Thanks alot for not giving up but yeah.

I feel so hopeless.

I know im not trying.

But i just can't anymore. Hahahaah.

It's funny how I tells dy things like.

~ Me : Dy , You know it's like what you wrote in facebook. "If you don't help yourself, how can i help you." That's why im saying that, im like i don't know since when that after i fall down, i never stand up again.

Dy : You don't have to stand up. You just have to crawl first. I'm letting you crawl now.

~

Godamn stupid! He sends me laughings like idiot ;)

Thanks for making me lauqh. Accompanies & stuffs.

I don't derserve all this..

Aww! Right now im posting because!

I'm feeling godamn sad.

Reading through phrases and thought about somethings.

I'm scare, im afraid.

Why am i such a coward?

It's like how my teachers keep tellings me,

You let them have it, they have won.

Yeah, They have won, I'm the loser here.

It's like you know yeah.

Some people that fall down, 80% of them have to stand up & will.

While 20% of them will stand up yet failed right.

Then im gonna tell you that's too bad, im inside the 20%.

I have no more will.

I want to try. Seriously, I keep thinking, if anyone knows what im feeling.

I hate those kind of humilation. I can't stand those humilation.

I wants to kill them so much.

I want to kill.

Having the urge to kill.

Having the urge to cut my hands to the max.

I'm not trying to act pathetic here.

I just know that's what i've been feeling.

This world is too unfair to me is it?

Is that way my family is nice to me to returns the fairness?

All of you wants me to fall down after i stand up.

Wants me to cry to the depth of the darkness.

Wants me to fall down and never get up.

You get what you derserve please leave me alone already.

I don't need this kind of memories that hurt so much.

Why? I hate it when i want to forget something and yet i can't.

You seems to hunt me for life forever.

" You need to give your heart some times for it to heal " .

Someone asks me , " but can you ? "

No, i defintely can't.

But i wish i can.

I never wanted to fall and never be able to stand up.

I want to stan..d..u..